Last week, an old college buddy invited me to participate as a speaker in a career fair at his school in downtown LA. I confessed to Jeff that this has been something of a bucket list item for me: I’ve always wanted to participate, or be asked to participate, in a career day at a school. I’m not sure why. Maybe it makes me feel better about spending so much time and money on my education. Maybe it helps my self-esteem a little bit. Whatever the reason, I obviously said yes.
Here are a few random songs I’ve enjoyed (not uber exciting discoveries, but I thought I’d pass them along anyway).
These past two weeks have been pretty great. I’ve received some comments lately that have reinforced where I’m going with my life, and make me feel like I’m doing something right. Maybe not everything, but something.
“I was just thinking…Steve Jobs started Apple out in his garage and now, its this incredible company changing the lives of so many people in the world (not to mention, he was the CEO of Pixar, movies I love). If he can do it, I know you can too. Go make your dreams a reality, Alex! I am here every step of the way to support you! Love you!”
I had a 2-3 month hiatus from my tutoring family, from May to July-ish. Between my oddly hectic schedule, and them flying off the Spain and Ireland for the Summer, it was easier to just cancel things for a while.
Guest post by Mike Goldstein
Alex asked me to write a blog post about what to do in Haiti and that’s turned out to be a really fucking complicated task. Haiti is such a persistent source of frustration, anxiety and astonishment to the world that Haiti is not just Haiti the place. We can’t look at it that way anymore because it’s clearly something more profound to us. It matters to us, it has its hooks in us. So I’m trying to go about exploring what Haiti is by starting with what it represents psychologically. That is, assuming we manifest this, what personal characteristic is dark enough to be Haiti, and what kind of person are we humans?
Well, I think it’s this: I think we’re an addict with a profound sense of guilt and also a profound morality. I think we’re afraid of dealing with what’s real, so we cope through addiction, which hurts us and others. Guilt is the pain that demands we reconcile our actions with our morality. And that’s Haiti.
How does this translate. We are addicted to buying things for our comfort and security. But in our system, things need to be affordable. Though slavery was outlawed in the US, the exploitation didn’t disappear – it had to go somewhere, so it went offshore to Haiti and other spots in the developing world. But it’s the same concept: workers make less money than they’re owed so that our products are affordable. Their muscles pay the difference, and we also draw against the land. It’s the suffering of which we spare ourselves the sight. I’ve never paid the full price for a cup of coffee.
But we have a sense of this pain and we want to stop it because we’re moral – though with one hand we buy the thing that requires their underpaid labor, with the other we try to help.
The best minds have attempted to cure this, but despite the world’s well-wishes, prayers, money and work, Haiti is still slow to heal. It hints at a disconnect – if we keep doing what we’re doing we will never reconcile our comfort with our morality. The story we normally tell ourselves about ourselves is incomplete because it doesn’t include the damage that eventually comes of our addiction.
After traveling the world I’ve come to some conclusions, one of which is the following: It’s a myth that the US has done something right and that Haiti has done something wrong. The comfort we experience is not the result of a superior system. In fact, our system is not our system, it’s THE system, it’s the global system. We sit at the top of a wheel and siphon wealth from the unlucky places at the bottom.
When I was younger it was easy to proclaim that we needed to crash the system because I knew that it would never happen so I could never be proven wrong. Pretty safe position to take. Now, though, I guess it feels a little closer at hand, intentional or not. So while I don’t think the following can be prescribed, I present it as my vision of a healthy society and, therefore, the tack I’ve started taking with my own life (where applicable). My feeling is that we might as well adopt it sooner rather than later because it’ll probably happen at some point anyway.
So, I imagine the alternative to material accumulation is a kind of mutualism, in which our actions, relationships and exchanges are mutually beneficial. Here’s what a mutualist paradigm might suggest for Haiti and for the US:
1) An emphasis on wisdom in the education system, from the in-body perspective. For some weird reason we’re building schools in Haiti and encouraging them to follow our lead. Our education system doesn’t even work that great here. It trains people for uninspired careers in a global economy that’s teetering.
– Both places should emphasize physical, emotional and spiritual health based on our relationship with the natural world. There should be a focus on nature and natural phenomena (how to slaughter a chicken, how to save seeds, how to hunt, how to make medicine, etc.) and it should be more guided than taught – let kids follow their interest. “In-body” means subjective experience. That is to say, we should give the in-body experience precedence over external authority. For example, science might tell Haitians that Voodoo doesn’t exist. Fuck that.
– The value of the internet to the planet’s shared wisdom can’t be overstated. In Haiti, getting everyone access to the internet should be one of the top priorities. I feel the best thing we can do for Haiti is give them access to the accumulated global knowledge.
– Another idea would be to foster mentorship within a community (which is to say, education does not need to be confined to schools).
2) An emphasis on localizing economies, governments, families and food systems. This reflects a focus on the real (food, touch, etc) instead of the abstract (money, nationalism, etc). This is a matter of being sensitive within ourselves, our relationships and the place we live. With each layer of abstraction we remove, we remove a depth of exploitation. As our current political climate reveals, anybody can say anything. Words are a technology that can be used for good or bad, so any systemic narratives that don’t place a person at the center of his or her world should be dissolved. In practice this means starting (and patronizing) small businesses, giving preference to community problem-solving, and transitioning to local food production.
3) An emphasis on earth systems, which means food forests (permaculture), stream reclamation, etc. It’s urgent that Haiti build up its topsoil. This can be done by re-introducing native plants and trees that had lived in equilibrium (permaculture) for the millennia before the French started exploiting the land. Haiti needs trees before the oil runs out. If they can’t establish a way to feed themselves by the time transport stops, they’re going to be seriously fucked (as will many of us). Though this might seem unnecessarily apocalypse-minded, answer me these questions: how long does it take for a forest to grow back from nothing? How many more years can we count on cheap oil to transport food around the world? I don’t know the answers, but at least I’m being alarmist. What this emphasis on earth systems means for the US is ripping up our shaved-vagina front lawns and putting in food plants, for gods’ sake.
3a) Remove extraneous luxuries. Our western culture needs to engage with the life-death cycle (death being the reality we avoid through addiction). (I don’t know about the Haitian relationship with death.) We’ve been convinced that death is a bad thing, and as long as that’s the case we can be controlled by the threat of death. I think even those of us who think we are ok with death would discover the opposite if we inspected our actions (just as every single one of us agrees that money doesn’t buy happiness, yet many of us continue to labor as if it does). As essential as it is that Haiti resoil its land, it’s just as essential that we lower our expectations for comfort. There’s not enough material on this earth for every person to live like a middle-class westerner. I just made that fact up, but I’ll bet it’s true. In practice this means seeing how it feels to remove extraneous luxuries. How low can you go?
4) Parent no more than one child! This one is mind-bogglingly simple to me, but there’s such ego around it that it’s taboo. How long would it take for us to halve the population? Fifty years? The strain on our planet is more a matter of quantity than quality. I see this issue as a relative of 3a – as afraid as we are of death, we are equally stubborn about our right to procreate prolifically. I’ll bet this is always a linear relationship. In developing countries this probably means continuing to provide access to birth control and sex education, but shit, you know, how’s that going? Again, this large-scale stuff can’t be prescribed, so we just have to practice it ourselves and talk openly about it. For the US this means getting used to a lot more oral and anal sex.
I know this has been a long-winded answer, but you gotta write something, right? So, in a nutshell, I don’t think the Haitians will have a chance at large-scale, sustainable health until their strength comes from the inside and the world stops messing with it. There are dozens of NGOs doing good things on a small scale in Haiti. Unfortunately there are thousands of NGOs there right now. Maybe we should all take a break. Give Haiti two years without any internal NGOs (except maybe some internet installation and medical groups), then let them invite us back one-by-one according to what they determine their need to be. There would be chaos, but shit has to hit the fan sometime. I don’t know if it’s helping to give them just enough support to keep them alive.
(I feel like I should leave you with a light-hearted message.)
Ultimately, though, the work we’re doing there is an ineffective bandage as long as we continue paying people to cut them.
(yikes, that didn’t work.)
Some links you might enjoy!
Kurt Vonnegut on addiction and the system
Well, we finished moving and are completely settled in to our new home with Jeff’s parents. For any who were curious, it’s going really well. His parents are wonderful and easy to live with. It was weird at first just getting used to having roommates again, so I can’t make Jeff’s coffee in my PJ’s (underwear…), but all of that is pretty minor. We really like our new room; in fact, we kinda like it better than the room from our apartment! Jeff’s mom let me have the desk they had in the living room, which is pretty amazing. It has little cubbies for all my office/work stuff, and a drawer with a filing cabinet (nerd), and it’s pretty amazing.